Great Now I'm Depressed.

So I just finished Kazuo Ishiguro's Never Let Me Go and while I think the novel is fantastic and beautiful and throughout reading I couldn't put it down, I'm officially depressed, or maybe not depressed really just sort of sad and thoughtful. Its about a young woman who is recalling her childhood at what seemed like an idyllic countryside boarding school, but then slowly and subtly the book gets darker and darker and the things that seemed fairly innocent on the surface just get sinister. I must admit that I figured out what was going on early on in the book and embarrassingly that was due to the fact that it reminded me of 'The Island', that film with Scarlet Johansson. If you've seen that film and are also interested in reading the book sorry I gave it away.

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Anyway, I just found myself thinking and pondering. The idea of cloning people for vital organs gives me the willies and the fact that even though it doesn't happen now, it could happen. One of the things that came up in the book is how ordinary people convinced themselves that the clones weren't really human, that they had no souls and therefore it wasn't worth worrying about hurting them or anything like that. I read about the same sort of thing happening during slavery. Had me thinking about how awful people can really be and of how much we can lie to ourselves. I do like novels like that though. It's good when something makes you think and not just about the subject matter but about other things as well. I'd recommend this book to anyone who likes to nudged out of everyday acceptance, because that's what the novel can do to you. Makes you want to do something because the characters in the book just don't and its frustrating.

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What I'm Listening To: World Cup highlights...Not music

Yesterdays News

So I met my brothers fan club yesterday. So weird. Turns out he’s popular with the girls. Freaked me out to no end since I still think of him as this quirky six year old who likes eating vegetables and tells stories about dragons that make no sense. I also spent an evening in the company of the step-siblings, who I mostly avoid what with them being certifiable. I spent my day off modelling for photos of the costumes for this years Notting Hill Carnival. So the photos should be up in a few weeks. It should be fun. I think I’ll be wearing the gold costume. I can’t wait.

I’m so bored. I like my job because I get paid to do very little and the hours are really flexible, but my god, I’m so bored. Sundays are the worst, its like sitting in a ghost town.

Tomorrow hopefully I get to paint my new room. Its all finished now, and my mother has been trying to confuse people by telling them that the door in the living room has been there the whole time. So far it has worked on exactly one person.


What I’m Listening To: Irreplaceable by George Benson

Busy Busy Bee

I've been so busy over the past few weeks I've barely had time to post. There's lots to report, I went to my Graduation Ball on the 20th of May, it was so much fun. I got to dress up all pretty and get tipsy on wine, then spend way too long gyrating on the dance floor in ridiculous shoes. So ridiculous in fact that my feet actually bled, seriously, I looked down at my feet and they were covered in red stuff, at first I thought someone had just spilt their drink on me but when I got to the bathroom to wipe it off, no no it was blood...yuck, I know. I didn't even notice it because my feet were already numb from the fact that I was wearing four inch heels and jumping up and down to the theme song from Baywatch. So that night was great, and being my crazy self I went straight to work the next day after an hours sleep and felt the beginnings of a cold. I always get ill when I haven't slept much. I however did not let that stop me and I invited my sis to the campus nightclub on the following Tuesday and had a great time dancing it up. Gave two guys my number and neither of them called (quite odd considering they approached me). The following week I moved out of my house and back in with my mum. Woo hoo no more rent. It's weird not having my own place but it's kind of nice to be home, however the majority of my clothes are in storage. I then celebrated the fact that I have no rent to pay by going shopping on June 1st and spending £200 on clothes and shoes. At least I don't have to worry about my clothes being in storage since I practically replaced my wardrobe.

The weather has been wonderful and I spent a whole day cleaning out the cesspit that is my mums garage. It was full of old toys and shelves. There was also a sofa in there and leftover stock from my mothers old shop. Stuff that’s been in there for almost 6 years. Like Power Rangers mugs and Looney Tunes toys. We're going to hit the car boot sale and hopefully make some money off of all that crap. I also found an old Levi's shop sign which was very retro and will go great in my new room. We are going to convert the garage into a room for me since my old room is too small to house all the crap I've accumulated since I moved out, the garage is much roomier so I'll be living in there for a while. So like I said I've been a busy bee, and I probably won't be able to relax for at least another two weeks since there will be builders crawling all over my house. Great stuff.



What I’m Listening To: Finally Woken by Jem